Monday, June 30, 2003
Just one of 'em days... Tenten sulks...
Tita Marison once told us that loneliness will always pass. Comforting thought... Not that I'm lonely or depressed now or anything like that. Just one of 'em days, that's all... Maybe it's a girl thing. Maybe it's a monthly girl thing...
My musings for the weekend... I remember most of the pocketbooks I used to read when I was a kid. They were about romance, young lovers, the ups and downs of adolesence. Usually, the conflicts revolved around lying, mistrust, and dishonesty. As I was reading them, I used to think that "Hey, forgive the guy. So he lied about something. Cut him some slack." I really couldn't grasp why lying was such a huge thing... Until it happened to me. I won't go into the details, but generally, it was with someone I trusted, someone who our family has been good to. I guess I just can't fathom how it easy it was for him to lie to us, despite everything we did for him (nothing in return required). As I was thinking about it in the car, I sort of concluded that perhaps, in a good and comfortable relationship, the minimum requirement from each other is honesty. Would you call someone who you lie to most of the time, about issues that matter, a good friend? I guess honesty points to integrity and trust. The things I believed in were based on what he had said, which I used to perceive as truths. I later found out that they were lies. Lies, he had so innocently told me were truths. It's not easy to trust someone else again. Actually, this incident made me think about how you can't figure everything out about a particular person. Or that in life, don't expect that everyone you've been nice to will be nice to you, will give you the same honesty? The people who will hurt you the most, are actually those whom you've been nicest to. Ain't it ironic? How those who make you feel so vulnerable have the power to hurt you like hell. It will hurt mostly because you know for a fact that you don't deserve it. And maybe, just maybe... life puts such an incident on your plate because it knows You are strong enough to handle it. Hmmm...
Random musings! =)
Tita Marison once told us that loneliness will always pass. Comforting thought... Not that I'm lonely or depressed now or anything like that. Just one of 'em days, that's all... Maybe it's a girl thing. Maybe it's a monthly girl thing...
My musings for the weekend... I remember most of the pocketbooks I used to read when I was a kid. They were about romance, young lovers, the ups and downs of adolesence. Usually, the conflicts revolved around lying, mistrust, and dishonesty. As I was reading them, I used to think that "Hey, forgive the guy. So he lied about something. Cut him some slack." I really couldn't grasp why lying was such a huge thing... Until it happened to me. I won't go into the details, but generally, it was with someone I trusted, someone who our family has been good to. I guess I just can't fathom how it easy it was for him to lie to us, despite everything we did for him (nothing in return required). As I was thinking about it in the car, I sort of concluded that perhaps, in a good and comfortable relationship, the minimum requirement from each other is honesty. Would you call someone who you lie to most of the time, about issues that matter, a good friend? I guess honesty points to integrity and trust. The things I believed in were based on what he had said, which I used to perceive as truths. I later found out that they were lies. Lies, he had so innocently told me were truths. It's not easy to trust someone else again. Actually, this incident made me think about how you can't figure everything out about a particular person. Or that in life, don't expect that everyone you've been nice to will be nice to you, will give you the same honesty? The people who will hurt you the most, are actually those whom you've been nicest to. Ain't it ironic? How those who make you feel so vulnerable have the power to hurt you like hell. It will hurt mostly because you know for a fact that you don't deserve it. And maybe, just maybe... life puts such an incident on your plate because it knows You are strong enough to handle it. Hmmm...
Random musings! =)
