Monday, June 30, 2003
Just one of 'em days... Tenten sulks...
Tita Marison once told us that loneliness will always pass. Comforting thought... Not that I'm lonely or depressed now or anything like that. Just one of 'em days, that's all... Maybe it's a girl thing. Maybe it's a monthly girl thing...
My musings for the weekend... I remember most of the pocketbooks I used to read when I was a kid. They were about romance, young lovers, the ups and downs of adolesence. Usually, the conflicts revolved around lying, mistrust, and dishonesty. As I was reading them, I used to think that "Hey, forgive the guy. So he lied about something. Cut him some slack." I really couldn't grasp why lying was such a huge thing... Until it happened to me. I won't go into the details, but generally, it was with someone I trusted, someone who our family has been good to. I guess I just can't fathom how it easy it was for him to lie to us, despite everything we did for him (nothing in return required). As I was thinking about it in the car, I sort of concluded that perhaps, in a good and comfortable relationship, the minimum requirement from each other is honesty. Would you call someone who you lie to most of the time, about issues that matter, a good friend? I guess honesty points to integrity and trust. The things I believed in were based on what he had said, which I used to perceive as truths. I later found out that they were lies. Lies, he had so innocently told me were truths. It's not easy to trust someone else again. Actually, this incident made me think about how you can't figure everything out about a particular person. Or that in life, don't expect that everyone you've been nice to will be nice to you, will give you the same honesty? The people who will hurt you the most, are actually those whom you've been nicest to. Ain't it ironic? How those who make you feel so vulnerable have the power to hurt you like hell. It will hurt mostly because you know for a fact that you don't deserve it. And maybe, just maybe... life puts such an incident on your plate because it knows You are strong enough to handle it. Hmmm...
Random musings! =)
Tita Marison once told us that loneliness will always pass. Comforting thought... Not that I'm lonely or depressed now or anything like that. Just one of 'em days, that's all... Maybe it's a girl thing. Maybe it's a monthly girl thing...
My musings for the weekend... I remember most of the pocketbooks I used to read when I was a kid. They were about romance, young lovers, the ups and downs of adolesence. Usually, the conflicts revolved around lying, mistrust, and dishonesty. As I was reading them, I used to think that "Hey, forgive the guy. So he lied about something. Cut him some slack." I really couldn't grasp why lying was such a huge thing... Until it happened to me. I won't go into the details, but generally, it was with someone I trusted, someone who our family has been good to. I guess I just can't fathom how it easy it was for him to lie to us, despite everything we did for him (nothing in return required). As I was thinking about it in the car, I sort of concluded that perhaps, in a good and comfortable relationship, the minimum requirement from each other is honesty. Would you call someone who you lie to most of the time, about issues that matter, a good friend? I guess honesty points to integrity and trust. The things I believed in were based on what he had said, which I used to perceive as truths. I later found out that they were lies. Lies, he had so innocently told me were truths. It's not easy to trust someone else again. Actually, this incident made me think about how you can't figure everything out about a particular person. Or that in life, don't expect that everyone you've been nice to will be nice to you, will give you the same honesty? The people who will hurt you the most, are actually those whom you've been nicest to. Ain't it ironic? How those who make you feel so vulnerable have the power to hurt you like hell. It will hurt mostly because you know for a fact that you don't deserve it. And maybe, just maybe... life puts such an incident on your plate because it knows You are strong enough to handle it. Hmmm...
Random musings! =)
Thursday, June 26, 2003
Juev 26... That's June 26 in Spanish...
Have you ever had one of 'em days when you wish you were a kid again? Entitled to months-long vacations and shallow musings about what to wear tomorrow, how to get good grades, and how to buy that nice Kamiseta blouse you saw on display? Mariless once told me that she knew someone who rode a bike to places he went to and didn't watch TV. Less wants, less needs... Pretty amazing idealogy... Especially amid a materialistic society where what you're wearing matters. I went around the mall after having lunch with Mark. I went to Rustan's to shop for a gift for Irene. I saw all of these pretty bags which cost as much as a payday's worth of money! Steep! As usual, I slinked off into that "I wish I were rich" mood, where my mind drifts into this hazy world where I could buy whatever I wanted... Of course, I have to remind myself that there are more worthy things than expensive things... I dunno where I heard this, but there was this guy who did not wish for the riches of the world... He just wanted to have a quality life. Sounds like a plan... =)
One more posting to come later today...
Have you ever had one of 'em days when you wish you were a kid again? Entitled to months-long vacations and shallow musings about what to wear tomorrow, how to get good grades, and how to buy that nice Kamiseta blouse you saw on display? Mariless once told me that she knew someone who rode a bike to places he went to and didn't watch TV. Less wants, less needs... Pretty amazing idealogy... Especially amid a materialistic society where what you're wearing matters. I went around the mall after having lunch with Mark. I went to Rustan's to shop for a gift for Irene. I saw all of these pretty bags which cost as much as a payday's worth of money! Steep! As usual, I slinked off into that "I wish I were rich" mood, where my mind drifts into this hazy world where I could buy whatever I wanted... Of course, I have to remind myself that there are more worthy things than expensive things... I dunno where I heard this, but there was this guy who did not wish for the riches of the world... He just wanted to have a quality life. Sounds like a plan... =)
One more posting to come later today...
Wednesday, June 25, 2003
Tenten eats, eats, and eats some more...
Today began with a trip to one of BF's prides, Conti's Restaurant, and ended with a mini-feast of lasagna and ham and cheese sandwich. In Drew Barrymore's words.... YUMMY! Hehehe! Notice that Drew's name has graced my blogging often. All thanks to the second installment to the Charlie's Angels series. I'm looking forward to watching the sequel this Friday. I'm sure it'll kick ass!!
Hmm... Random musings for today... Funny how nothing stays the same. How nothing is constant but change... This makes it super difficult to predict what'll happen in a year or so... or even in a day. No one can predict exactly what will happen during the day. Maybe we can predict our own actions, as we possess our own free will. But our life is interconnected with others', other beings to have their own free will. The simplest of days may have predictable highlights. But its exact happenings (minute per minute) we will not be able to predict. Unless we stop living.
I liked what was said in "Shawshank Redemption". We decide if we continue living or continue dying.
Hehehe! All random thoughts... Another one coming...
I was just chatting with Roch and she was telling me about her shopping expeditions... I think I would like to go shopping one of these days. There's that new, funky Reaction watch I saw. And maybe a couple of new blouses... The new digicam I've been eyeing (curses Canon and their super small cameras!), and of course that Tag Heuer watch I've been salivating over... Sometimes I'm torn between splurging and keeping my funds in tact. Perhaps I should aim to better control my everyday spendings, and then decide whether I want to splurge or save. Hehehe!
Hehe... How random can my thoughts be?!??! =) More tomorrow....
Today began with a trip to one of BF's prides, Conti's Restaurant, and ended with a mini-feast of lasagna and ham and cheese sandwich. In Drew Barrymore's words.... YUMMY! Hehehe! Notice that Drew's name has graced my blogging often. All thanks to the second installment to the Charlie's Angels series. I'm looking forward to watching the sequel this Friday. I'm sure it'll kick ass!!
Hmm... Random musings for today... Funny how nothing stays the same. How nothing is constant but change... This makes it super difficult to predict what'll happen in a year or so... or even in a day. No one can predict exactly what will happen during the day. Maybe we can predict our own actions, as we possess our own free will. But our life is interconnected with others', other beings to have their own free will. The simplest of days may have predictable highlights. But its exact happenings (minute per minute) we will not be able to predict. Unless we stop living.
I liked what was said in "Shawshank Redemption". We decide if we continue living or continue dying.
Hehehe! All random thoughts... Another one coming...
I was just chatting with Roch and she was telling me about her shopping expeditions... I think I would like to go shopping one of these days. There's that new, funky Reaction watch I saw. And maybe a couple of new blouses... The new digicam I've been eyeing (curses Canon and their super small cameras!), and of course that Tag Heuer watch I've been salivating over... Sometimes I'm torn between splurging and keeping my funds in tact. Perhaps I should aim to better control my everyday spendings, and then decide whether I want to splurge or save. Hehehe!
Hehe... How random can my thoughts be?!??! =) More tomorrow....
Tuesday, June 24, 2003
My second blog of the day... Tenten Shares...
Being the movie buff that I am, this extended weekend had me in a whirlwind of movie viewing, courtesy of my new DVDs from Mikey. One particular film that I simply adored was "A Little Princess". Based on a book by Frances Hodgson Burnett, and made into a movie directed by Harry Potter 3 director, Alfonso Cuaron, this 1995 masterpiece, had me laughing and crying (haha, big surprise!). It revisits the magic of every girl's childhood. I've always been fascinated by children, the wonderment in their eyes and their avid belief of the unknown and the all-good. Sometimes I wonder if I've outgrown that part of me. Perhaps I haven't completely. I love kids and I feel that the childhood I had left behind decades ago, is continued through them. Most of my friends know I want to be a mom, even without the Dad part. Hehe.
Hmm... makes me wonder if I should also get "The Secret Garden" on DVD as well...
Being the movie buff that I am, this extended weekend had me in a whirlwind of movie viewing, courtesy of my new DVDs from Mikey. One particular film that I simply adored was "A Little Princess". Based on a book by Frances Hodgson Burnett, and made into a movie directed by Harry Potter 3 director, Alfonso Cuaron, this 1995 masterpiece, had me laughing and crying (haha, big surprise!). It revisits the magic of every girl's childhood. I've always been fascinated by children, the wonderment in their eyes and their avid belief of the unknown and the all-good. Sometimes I wonder if I've outgrown that part of me. Perhaps I haven't completely. I love kids and I feel that the childhood I had left behind decades ago, is continued through them. Most of my friends know I want to be a mom, even without the Dad part. Hehe.
Hmm... makes me wonder if I should also get "The Secret Garden" on DVD as well...
Tuesday, the first day of my work week...
Last weekend was a blast! The excitement started to mount when Maila and I did the grocery at Landmark. We left an hour and a half late of our scheduled departure. Despite fog-stricken roads, heavy downpour, and unavoidable traffic, we reached our destination, Matuod Beach, Lian Batangas. Our welcome committee at the resort consisted of a large howling black dog (from the wrong house), a swarm of fluid-hungry insects, and! hours later, a power outage, amidst our rest period. Saturday morning, we had corned beef and omelette for breakfast. Swimming commenced thereafter. The real swimming spot was almost a mile away from shore! The beach was pretty good. A little pebbly at the shoreline, but fine after several footsteps. For lunch, we had adobo and veggies. The afternoon was for siesta! For merienda, we had tuna sandwich and squidballs. The best meal was to come in the evening... liempo and ensaladang mangga! In Drew Barrymore's words.... YUMMY!
The evening ended well, with a bonfire and a short drinking session.
Twas my first team outing, and I had a good time! Nica, Marchae's daughter was such a sweetheart... Allan had the same thoughts about Marchae's hubby. Hehe.
Last weekend was a blast! The excitement started to mount when Maila and I did the grocery at Landmark. We left an hour and a half late of our scheduled departure. Despite fog-stricken roads, heavy downpour, and unavoidable traffic, we reached our destination, Matuod Beach, Lian Batangas. Our welcome committee at the resort consisted of a large howling black dog (from the wrong house), a swarm of fluid-hungry insects, and! hours later, a power outage, amidst our rest period. Saturday morning, we had corned beef and omelette for breakfast. Swimming commenced thereafter. The real swimming spot was almost a mile away from shore! The beach was pretty good. A little pebbly at the shoreline, but fine after several footsteps. For lunch, we had adobo and veggies. The afternoon was for siesta! For merienda, we had tuna sandwich and squidballs. The best meal was to come in the evening... liempo and ensaladang mangga! In Drew Barrymore's words.... YUMMY!
The evening ended well, with a bonfire and a short drinking session.
Twas my first team outing, and I had a good time! Nica, Marchae's daughter was such a sweetheart... Allan had the same thoughts about Marchae's hubby. Hehe.
Thursday, June 19, 2003
Just came back from lunch. My hair smells like the a variety of dishes! Sisig, calamares, and lechon kawali, topped with tapsilog.
I used to think that lunch breaks were sacred. =) The hour and a half when I become more than a programmer, amid worldly cuisines and long walks to restaurants all over the city. Lunch has changed somehow. Minus the tingly feeling in my cheek... minus racing hearts... minus the excitemeny even. Not to say that it has become less of a gratifying experience. It has grown to become comfortable. Plus the familiarity, plus the warmth, plus even funnier anecdotes.
Hehe! Tis the afternoon lazy lull typing... =)
Back to the grindstone!!
I used to think that lunch breaks were sacred. =) The hour and a half when I become more than a programmer, amid worldly cuisines and long walks to restaurants all over the city. Lunch has changed somehow. Minus the tingly feeling in my cheek... minus racing hearts... minus the excitemeny even. Not to say that it has become less of a gratifying experience. It has grown to become comfortable. Plus the familiarity, plus the warmth, plus even funnier anecdotes.
Hehe! Tis the afternoon lazy lull typing... =)
Back to the grindstone!!
Cool! My first blog ever!
First on my list - give credit to Sam, my friend who also blogs. I thought, "how interesting... I want one, too!" Inggetera ever!!
Second... Hmm... what to write about??
I came in early today. Not really a record-breaker or anything... But it's a deviation from my usual come-in time. I went to the gym. Weird! I don't sweat as much anymore. Dunno if it's because all the fat in my body blocks the sweat. Hehe! I'm looking forward to more Badminton weekends.
Speaking of weekends, we'll be going to Batangas tonight. Whopee!! Our first team outing here at the office. Hope everything goes well... More thoughts later...
First on my list - give credit to Sam, my friend who also blogs. I thought, "how interesting... I want one, too!" Inggetera ever!!
Second... Hmm... what to write about??
I came in early today. Not really a record-breaker or anything... But it's a deviation from my usual come-in time. I went to the gym. Weird! I don't sweat as much anymore. Dunno if it's because all the fat in my body blocks the sweat. Hehe! I'm looking forward to more Badminton weekends.
Speaking of weekends, we'll be going to Batangas tonight. Whopee!! Our first team outing here at the office. Hope everything goes well... More thoughts later...
